Jade E. E. N. Kadir

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07:16 pm: A Great Day Off
Today's Writing Effort

Almost the first thing I did, even before bathing and getting dressed, was to get AJ to help me take the trash down to the bottom of the hill before the sanitation workers got here to collect it. But we had to take the snow tires out of the back of the truck first and we ended up putting them in the shed behind the shop. It was the only place really because of the rain water stuck inside of them. Hopefully it will evaporate out soon enough.

Then I got ready for my day. I had to stop on the way to town to get gas, but then I went to see Dan for a while. We chatted about movies and TV and a whole range of topics and then we had an amorous afternoon with each other. :)

After I had to leave, I went to my dorm room and checked the mail. Then I went to Ace Hardware to see if they had a couple of things for the house. One of the things was at their Garden Center, which is another building entirely, so I'll have to track that down later on. Then I got some groceries at the Albertsons and then I went home.

Scott was here, talking to James, when I got home and I think that some real progress is being made on things. I may get into my room by the time my lease is up. That would be nice. maxheadwidth ordered some of the things I picked out for my room and some stuff for himself and for Bastion too. Jenny had tried to, but the site was giving her some guff.

James had an appointment in town with Ethan and AJ and that left the rest of us to fend for ourselves for dinner since they would be eating in town after their appointment.

EDIT:
After James and the boys got home, we found out that there was no water pressure in the house. Bastion was a little bit of a pill, thinking that he knew everything and that he had the right to just do whatever he wanted despite me asking him not to do certain things, like flush the toilets to see if they would refill when we knew they wouldn't if there was no water pressure.

I got the name of the plumber we used for the kitchen sink from Jenny and will call them in the morning to get them to come out and take a look at the well pump, which is the most likely suspect for the source of the problem.

Jenny went into town to get some big jugs of water just in case the outage lasts more than a day or two. But that means I can't wash anything (dishes or clothes or myself) and that is making me grumpy.

But after Jenny got back, we all went out to the north field and put up a slack line for everyone to play on for a while. I didn't because I knew that I would just hurt myself and I didn't want to get laid up like that. It was nice to see everyone else happy though.

Tags: aj, albertsons, bastion, d & s, dan s., ethan, home repairs, james brown, jenny from missoula, writing 365

12:33 pm: When We Are Old
Today's Writing Effort

I kind of miss waking up early. The earliest I get up these days is 8:00am. It feels a little bit like I'm wasting the day. I never thought I would be an early riser, but at least when I do, I get a lot of stuff done. This morning, I took maxheadwidth to the gym. We'd stayed up a little late watching some TV but not late enough that I didn't get plenty of sleep.

I'm still not looking forward to my nine hour shift tonight. *Le Sigh*

But I'm most worried about James' health. I keep praying that some doctor or scientist will come up with some new medication that will help him better or a treatment or especially a cure for whatever it is that plagues him. It's so rare it doesn't even have a name. I just want him to get well so that he doesn't have so many bad days. I want him with me until we're really old and wrinkly and grey.

When You Are Old
by William Butler Yeats

When you are old and gray and full of sleep
And nodding by the fire, take down this book,
And slowly read, and dream of the soft look
Your eyes had once, and of their shadows deep;

How many loved your moments of glad grace,
And loved your beauty with love false or true;
But one man loved the pilgrim soul in you,
And loved the sorrows of your changing face.

And bending down beside the glowing bars,
Murmur, a little sadly, how love fled
And paced upon the mountains overhead,
And hid his face amid a crowd of stars.

Tags: author: william butler yeats, james brown, jenny from missoula, ori, poetry: others, writing 365

05:49 pm: An Afternoon At The YMCA Pool
Today's Writing Effort

I drove maxheadwidth into town this morning and spent some time at my dorm room using the internet. Jenny was able to stay home and be there for the satellite internet guy to install our new service. Then I went back out to the house and got Bastion, Ethan, and AJ and took them to Walmart to get swim trunks. Then we went to the YMCA to swim in the pool for a while. We left there at 4:30pm or so and went home where Jenny was cooking dinner.

I had some fun texting with Dan today. I'm going to be seeing him on Wednesday and I'm looking forward to it quite a bit.

EDIT:
After dinner, and post-dinner cleanup, everyone went to go do their own thing for a while until it was time for bed. I'm not really looking forward to work tomorrow because it's a nine hour day. But I have to make up for last week when I only got one shift.

Being broke all the time really sucks, but at the same time I can't afford to just work all the time. The family needs me at home more, which means I need to get comfortable asking James for financial help. That's something I struggle with a lot after being on my own for more than half of my life.

Tags: aj, bastion, computers, dan s., ethan, james brown, jenny from missoula, money, writing 365

10:25 pm: TBA
Today's Writing Effort

Today mostly consisted of chores. I meant to get up at 8:00am, but slept through my alarm. Not surprising since bedtime wasn't until 2:30am. But I got up and did chores and finished sorting photos on my phone and wrote a little bit. I had fun texting with maxheadwidth who was downstairs while I was upstairs. It felt very much like we were ...

Tags: aj, bastion, ethan, james brown, jenny from missoula, writing 365

10:59 am: Media Consumption
Sunday 06/04/2017 to Saturday 06/10/2017

Movies: ( {++} = Watched With James)
NONE

TV: ( {++} = Watched With James)
Sense8: S02 E05 (Fear Never Fixed Anything)
Sense8: S02 E06 (Isolated Above, Connected Below)
Sense8: S02 E07 (I Have No Room In My Heart For Hate)
The West Wing: S06 E03 (Third-Day Story) [NBC] {++}
The West Wing: S06 E04 (Liftoff) [NBC] {++}
The West Wing: S06 E05 (The Hubbert Peak) [NBC] {++}
Sense8: S02 E08 (All I Want Right Now Is One More Bullet)
The West Wing: S06 E06 (The Dover Test) [NBC] {++}
Sense8: S02 E09 (What Family Actually Means)
The West Wing: S06 E07 (A Change Is Gonna Come) [NBC] {++}
The West Wing: S06 E08 (In The Room) [NBC] {++}
The West Wing: S06 E09 (Impact Winter) [NBC] {++}
The West Wing: S06 E10 (Faith Based Initiative) [NBC] {++}
The West Wing: S06 E11 (Opposition Research) [NBC] {++}
The West Wing: S06 E12 (365 Days) [NBC] {++}

Web Series:
NONE

Books:
* = Plays / Short Stories / Novelettes / Novellas:
Women In Practical Armor [ebook] Edited by Ed Greenwood & Gabrielle Harbowy - 39% - 100% (of 316 pages)

Manga, Graphic Novels & Comics:
NONE

Misc:
NONE

Reference:
LibraryThing
2017 Reading List

Tags: james brown media, media consumption

11:31 pm: Sorting And Chores And Kids Oh My
Today's Writing Effort

maxheadwidth had to run out to an appointment early this morning, so I just got up and did some chores and checked my email, but he came back rather quickly, saying he'd gotten the time wrong. So we talked a little bit about role playing games and Choose Your Own Adventure and we had a little Adult Fun Playtime before he had to go back to town for real. He was gone most of the day and I did more chores and hung out with Ethan, AJ, and Bastion for a bit watching some stand up comedy show by Gabriel Iglesias aka Fluffy.

Jenny came home and made dinner and we all ate together and talked about the Summer Reading Challenge for the kids. Then everyone went to do their own thing and James and Jenny had some alone time. I'm still trying to get my phone's pictures all sorted out, but it's almost done and then I'll be back on top again.

James and I got to watch a little bit of TV before he had to go to the Trucker Mall to get cough drops for Jenny. He took Bastion with him. But James was a little mad that they boys blew through 10GB of data in six days and he's wondering if we should even bother with satellite internet if it's not going to last the whole month.

Tags: aj, bastion, comedy: gabriel iglesias, d & s, ethan, james brown, jenny from missoula, writing 365

08:59 pm: Tired To The Bone
Today's Writing Effort

I was all prepared to sleep in a little bit so that I could get properly rested for my time hanging out with man_of_snows and Justin. But Ethan came up to maxheadwidth's bedroom and asked if I was taking them to school today. It was Ethan and AJ's last day of school for the year. I said that Jenny was going to do it, but he said that she said I was going to do it. So I got up and got dressed and we were out the door in like eight minutes. No breakfast. No tea. No shower. It was not the best morning ever.

But the kids got to school on time and I went to my dorm room to use the internet there. I was supposed to meet Jory and Justin there later anyway, so it worked out pretty well.

They came up from Jory's parent's house and we went out to lunch at Paul's Pancake Parlor and then popped over to the Book Exchange. Then we went out to the house so that I could show them how pretty it is and they got to meet Bastion. After that, we went back into town and went to Rockin' Rudy's and after some shopping, we went for a walk. We stopped at the Senior Center Thrift Shop and while we were there it started raining. We scurried over to Clyde's Coffee to wait out the rain and after that, we went for a walk down by the river heading east. We took some pictures and saw some neat birds.

After our adventures, we went back to my dorm room and hung out for a little bit before I had to go to work and they had to go back to Jory's parent's house.

Work was work. I left about ten minutes late and when I got home, James and I got to hang out a little bit and watch TV before going to bed.

Tags: aj, bastion, ethan, james brown, jory, jory's folks, justin, missoula, writing 365

02:38 pm: TBA
Today's Writing Effort

*Will post this later.

Tags: aj, ethan, james brown, missoula, ori, phone, writing 365

07:19 pm: The Saga Of The Phones
Today's Writing Effort

My day started out pretty wonderful. I got to spend a little time with maxheadwidth and have some Adult Fun Playtime before I had to take the truck into town to pick up Ethan and AJ from a half day at school. Travis had brought it back in the morning and picked up his car.

I picked up AJ first and he got some driving practice in by going to get Ethan and then going to the T-Mobile store so I could get a new phone. Except we were there forever because my data wouldn't transfer from my old phone to the new phone.

Finally, AJ drove us over to the Fresh Mart so we could get food and then we went back to the phone store. The store manager said that the thing might work and I took the boys home and let AJ drive. But it didn't, so I called the store and he went to get the cable he needed for this special machine they have (the old cord was broken), and the transfer still took forever.

I was there pretty continuously from around 1:00pm to 8:00pm. At least I got a hefty credit to my account for the inconvenience.

I also missed another call from Heather. :(

Tags: aj, ethan, heather, james brown, phone, travis, writing 365

10:48 pm: Fun And Games Vs The Broken Phone
Today's Writing Effort

I took Ethan and AJ to school in the morning and then went straight home because maxheadwidth needed the car and Travis was going to borrow the truck. But after being home enough for some chores, I got a ride into town with James, who dropped me off at my dorm room because I was supposed to have lunch with Dan at a place called Fiesta En Jalisco. So Dan came and picked me up at my dorm room and we had a nice meal out. Then we went back to his place for conversation and Fun & Games. :)

When we were done a couple of hours later, he was nice enough to drive me home. James was there and we all had a nice chat for a few minutes before I had to go back into town in the car to pick up the boys from school. The boys and I got beverages from McDonald's on the way home because AJ was super thirsty.

James came home from the appointment he had in town and we met Jenny at the River City Grill for dinner and towards the end, James had to go do Mason stuff so Jenny gave us a ride back home.

In the evening, after James came home, he and I watched a little TV before he went to sleep with James Jenny.

The only snag with my day was that when Dan dropped me off at home, my phone fell out of my hoodie pocket and the screen broke. Now I have to get a new phone.

However, I did get a call from my Coven-mate, Heather, though I didn't have my ringer on at the time and she was unavailable when I called her back. But it was really good to hear her voice on my voicemail.

Tags: aj, dan s., ethan, heather, james brown, jenny from missoula, jory, masons, missoula, phone, writing 365

09:33 pm: Weird Little Day
Today's Writing Effort

My morning was fairly typical except that I slept through my alarm. *Le Sigh* I hate it when I do that. I always feel like such a slacker. Jenny took the boys to school, which was really nice though. But I got some stuff done including a load of dishes and a load of laundry and I got a new internet provider set up to do their installation next Monday. And then I went into town. I was going to go to my dorm room to start packing up, but maxheadwidth had taken the car, and with it, my house keys, so I could get into the house, but not my room. I'll have to get the spares I made from Ethan and AJ so that I can get in if that happens again and so that I can return them when I move out.

But I grabbed the mail and my aloe vera plant and went back to the house. There I got to see James for a little bit, but he needed a nap and hunkered down in Jenny's room for a little bit while I had some lunch.

I don't know quite what I did with the rest of my day. It's all kind of a blur. I know I set up shifts for the rest of this week and next, but I'm going to have to miss the Friday night out at the movies because I'll be working. :(

I did stop by the library to get a new book that Dan recommended that looks rather interesting. I also asked Dan to lunch for tomorrow and that should be a lot of fun. We've been texting a lot today and that's always fun and a little sassy. :)

All in all, it was just a strange little day.

Tags: aj, dan s., ethan, james brown, jenny from missoula, writing 365

05:38 pm: Hammock Adventure Time
Today's Writing Effort

I need to start getting up earlier again. I just feel like I get more done during the day when it starts early. Once we start actively planting things, next Spring most likely, that won't be a worry for me I imagine.

But I did manage to go down to the Trucker Mall to get milk and eggs to make pancakes for Bastion and I. maxheadwidth had gone into town to pick up Ethan and AJ shortly after we got up. Then, when he got back with the boys, we all did some yardwork. Bastion raked up the dry grass clippings and I bagged them. AJ mowed another section of the lawn and Ethan used the weed eater. James was the Jack of all Trades and did a little bit of everything including trying to get some wood from the piles in the forest up to the barn.

After everyone was done, we went to our separate tasks. The boys played video games and I dug up some boxes in the shop that James needed and he worked out in the house and outside of the shop.

Jenny got back after a while from her camping trip and got the boys some food. Then James, the boys, and I went out to put up hammocks by the stream while Jenny went into town to get groceries. But my trees were too far apart and I didn't even get to lay in mine. We have to get extra straps or I have to pick new trees. I kind of broke down a little bit and I can't figure out why. So James and I went upstairs and he did some work and I did some writing.

EDIT:
After dinner, James and I got to watch a little TV and have some wonderful Adult Fun Playtime and some snuggles before he went off to sleep with Jenny. I'm a pretty lucky gal to have such a wonderful boyfriend.

Tags: aj, bastion, d & s, ethan, james brown, jenny from missoula, writing 365

03:06 pm: Media Consumption
Sunday 05/28/2017 to Saturday 06/03/2017

Movies: ( {++} = Watched With James)
Gangs Of New York - 1/2 {++}

TV: ( {++} = Watched With James)
Sense8: S02 E01 (Happy F*cking New Year: A Christmas Special)
Sense8: S02 E02 (Who Am I?)
Sense8: S02 E03 (Obligate Mutualisms)
Sense8: S02 E04 (Polyphony)

Web Series:
NONE

Books:
* = Plays / Short Stories / Novelettes / Novellas:
The Wise Man's Fear [ebook] by Patrick Rothfuss - 65% - 100% (of 1,007 pages)
Women In Practical Armor [ebook] Edited by Ed Greenwood & Gabrielle Harbowy - 38% (of 316 pages)

Manga, Graphic Novels & Comics:
NONE

Misc:
NONE

Reference:
LibraryThing
2017 Reading List

Tags: james brown media, media consumption

11:02 pm: The Storage Unit Is Empty At Long Last
Today's Writing Effort

Last night, after Jenny had gone to bed, James and I talked a bit and then went up to bed and had some Adult Fun Playtime. It's nice that we have such great chemistry together.

**********

I was mostly stuck at the house today. Jenny went camping with Shani and Shani's daughter (America). And maxheadwidth took the car into town to run errands. I was waiting for Travis to bring the truck back so that I could finish emptying my storage unit and so that I could get my stuff from Pier1. So I did some laundry and other chores and watched a little TV and played with Theo.

James came back before Travis brought the truck back and brought Bastion with him. Then he went back to town to go to the gym. While he was gone, Travis came by and we went to town to drop him off at Les Schwab where his car was getting its tires changed. But I needed to go there anyway, so it worked out well.

After we parted ways, I went to storage and got my stuff and went to Pier1 and got more stuff, and then I went home. James arrived home while I was unloading the truck and he and Bastion helped me with the last bits of it and then we went inside and did our own thing for a little while until dinner.

We had dinner at the River City Grill, which is a nice little place to have dinner and it's close by, which helps a lot.

So tomorrow, I might go into town and start packing up my dorm room. I don't need my things there and I just want all my stuff in one geographical area. It will make me feel a lot better.

After dinner we all watched about half of a movie before heading to bed.

Tags: bastion, d & s, james brown, jenny from missoula, missoula, remodeling, storage unit, theo, travis, writing 365

09:55 pm: Productive Despite Myself
Today's Writing Effort

I really didn't want to get out of bed today. I'd talked to man_of_snows for more than an hour last night and that was really great, but the moment I got into bed, I was super sad and I cried myself to sleep. I just don't like it when the house is so empty.

But I got up and watered the plants and put in a load of laundry and then went out to my storage unit to get as much stuff as I could fit into the car. Apparently, as I found out later, Kitty and Travis borrowed the truck and they'll be bringing it back tomorrow afternoon so that I can pick up the stuff from Pier1 and the last bit of large stuff from storage. After storage I stopped by my place to get some stuff from the mini-fridge in my room and check the mail and I stopped by Albertsons to get an ingredient for dinner that I know we didn't have at the house.

I spent part of the day talking to Dan via text and it was really good. :)

Then I came back and pulled out some meat to defrost in the sink and folded the laundry and found something for maxheadwidth that he had been looking for. Then I made a second trip to storage and got the last of the stuff that would fit in the car and went home. It's all in the shop now, which is still technically storage, but at least I don't have to pay for this space like the last one.

I made myself some dinner and watched a little TV. I unpacked the rest of James' books and sorted them into their categories and I talked to Shani on the phone for an hour or so and then did some work on the computer.

James and Jenny should be getting back tonight sometime, though I don't know when. I just hope it's soon.

Tags: albertsons, dan s., james brown, jenny from missoula, jory, shani, storage unit, writing 365

12:17 pm: A Little Maudlin Sort Of Day
Today's Writing Effort

I managed to get Bastion to school on time, though that was a narrow thing. He didn't want to get out of bed.

Part of me didn't want to get out of bed either because maxheadwidth is off to Bozeman for an overnight trip with Jenny. I think they'll be back tomorrow. It's a work thing with James and I think Jenny is stopping in at her Bozeman store too or maybe just visiting friends. But I miss him when he's gone and I just get a little morose.

But I spent a little time at my dorm room to use the internet and I chatted with Dan a bit over text and that made my day a little bit brighter. Tonight will be tough though because I will be out at the house all by myself. I don't even have Theo with me because I think Jenny took him with them to Bozeman.

I'm not looking forward to work tonight. It's going to be doubly hard to be cheerful when I'm missing James, but I'll try.

Tomorrow I'm going to pick up stuff from Pier1 that we ordered for my room, and I'm going to clean out my storage unit and then all I need to do will be to pack up my dorm room and I'll be pretty much moved in. I won't have a room until Bastion's is done, but I don't need to keep my things in my dorm room anymore because I haven't slept here in quite a while and I don't think I would need to unless James and Jenny really wanted some alone time.

EDIT:
Well, after chatting with Dan a bit and getting the okay from our respective partners, I went over to his place and we had a lovely bit of afternoon delight. :)

Then I went to work and, well, work was work.

On the way home though, I felt a wave of melancholia hit me. I was on my way home to an empty house. And when I got there, the truck was gone. But I know that Jenny and James are out of town. Scott had come by to do some work on Bastion's room, but that doesn't account for the creepy feeling that I have right now. Someone else was in the house. James' bedroom light was on, but the door was closed. Some of the kitchen cupboards were open too. And the truck was gone. Someone took the keys and drove it away. I'm hoping that it's someone who had permission to do that, but James hasn't, as of 10:00pm, responded to my text about it. I thought about calling him, but if he's in bed or having some fun with Jenny, I don't want to disturb him any more than I have to. I'm just quietly freaking out right now. I may not sleep tonight with the thought that some possible random person was in the house today while I was gone.

O.o

But I do need to sleep because it's the only time I can escape the melancholia I have when James is out of town.

Boy, I'm kind of pathetic sometimes. I know this. I just can't help it.

Tags: bastion, bozeman, d & s, dan s., james brown, jenny from missoula, ori, remodeling, theo, writing 365

08:41 pm: Amorous Encounter
Today's Writing Effort

maxheadwidth and I slept in too late. We forgot to set an alarm the night before when we went to sleep. But to be fair, we had been having some Adult Fun Playtime and got distracted. But James called Dan to ask him if he could give us twenty extra minutes to get ready for him to come over and he was totally cool with that. James got me prepared and then went downstairs to meet Dan when he arrived.

Dan was a wonderful play partner and that's all I'm going to say about that, except that there is every likelihood that we'll do it again sometime soon.

After Dan left, I cleaned up the kitchen and washed the bedding and folded some of Jenny's laundry and then I went to pick up Bastion from school. But I was fifteen minutes late and he wasn't there. I freaked out and looked everywhere I could think of and I called around to Kitty and Travis and James called me and we both looked for him and finally found out, after about an hour and a half of looking, that Jenny had picked him up and taken him out to his Mom's new place to get clean clothes, but they couldn't get in and went back to the house. *Le Sigh*

Of course that threw of James' day and mine too. And James couldn't go to the gym, so he's having a rough evening. And tomorrow he and Jenny are going to Bozeman like they were supposed to last week and didn't get to accomplish. They'll be back on Friday or Saturday.

But Jenny made dinner and we ate out on the deck and it was nice because a storm is brewing and it was nice and cool.

Tags: bastion, bozeman, d & s, dan s., james brown, jenny from missoula, kitty, travis, writing 365

10:35 pm: Success At Long Last
Today's Writing Effort

I got a call this morning from Nicole, the gal who runs the Pak Rat Storage office. She was returning my call from the message I left her and she wanted to meet at my unit to see if we could get it open. So I met her there at 10:30am and we found out that there was a box that had fallen over and was weighing down the door. So we managed to get it off the door and then there was another problem. We could get the door up a little bit, but not enough to go all the way up. Because some boxed had fallen forward and one was lodged against the wheel thing. But Nicole got in there as she is taller than me, and she managed to get it out of the way and she put WD-40 in the door tracks and all was right with the world.

I made three round trips with the car full of boxes of books and whatnot and the unit is half empty. I bet if I can get the truck tomorrow, I can finish emptying it out. Nicole said that she would give me a couple of extra days because of the holiday and that if the unit is empty by Monday, she won't charge me for June. Yay!!!!!

So I put all the boxes in the shop and had a bite to eat and then I went to work. Work was work. But maxheadwidth has arranged for Dan and I to have an amorous encounter tomorrow morning and so for the past few days, I've been trading salacious texts with Dan. I'm rather looking forward to tomorrow morning.

When I got home, James was at Mason stuff and Jenny was in her room and we had Bastion, which I wasn't aware was going to happen, but Jenny's taking him to school tomorrow, so I don't have to worry about doing that and rushing home to get ready to entertain Dan.

Now I just have to make sure that I get enough sleep so that I'm not exhausted before fun and games.

Tags: bastion, d & s, dan s., james brown, jenny from missoula, ori, storage unit, writing 365

10:45 pm: Reading Day
Today's Writing Effort

Sleeping in is sometimes nice and sometimes you wake up and think "damn it". Today was like the latter. But it's weird because I didn't have much to do at all. If I had been able to open my storage unit, I would have gone out there to get a load of stuff, but that wasn't to be. So I had a reading day. I unpacked some boxes of maxheadwidth's books that we got from his storage unit on Saturday. That was at least useful.

James even came out to the car as I was getting in to leave so that he could say goodbye. He's so incredibly sweet like that. *Swoon*

I was late for work though because I had to get gas into the car. It was running on empty and I think I barely made it to the gas station three miles down the road. I don't know how far I could have gone, but not much further I'm guessing.

So I was about thirteen minutes late but everyone was pretty okay with that. It's not like someone was waiting on me to arrive so that they could leave. The thing that always hits me first when I get there is the smell. It's like that hospital smell of cleaning products and body fluids. But after a while of being there I don't notice it as much.

When I was done with work, I drove home and the house was empty. James was hanging out with Shani and helping her with some stuff, and Jenny was out with friends. But she got home at around 10:30 and we chatted for a little bit before bed.

Tags: james brown, jenny from missoula, ori, shani, storage unit, writing 365

10:51 pm: Feeling Frisky
Today's Writing Effort

maxheadwidth and I stayed up late last night watching a little TV and as a result, we had a little bit of a sleep in. But after he took his shower and I took mine, we had a little Adult Fun Playtime. I always feel so happy afterwards.

Jenny had already left for town and so I went to run a couple of errands. I stopped by my dorm room to get a couple of things. Then I went to Lowe's for some cable to tow the riding lawnmower up a hill. After that, I went out to my storage unit. But I was highly disappointed that I could not get the door to slide upwards more than an inch. It unlocked just fine. The locking bar slid open just fine. The door just wouldn't go up. *Le Sigh* I don't know if I'm just not strong enough to do it by myself or if it's just stuck. So I called the office (which won't be open until Tuesday because of Memorial Day on Monday) and I left them a message about my unit door being stuck. I hope they call me back and if not, I'm going to call them after they've been open an hour or so and get some help getting it open.

I just want my stuff out of it so I don't have to pay for another month of storage. Even if I got it out the first week of the month, they don't pro-rate for unused days.

So I got frustrated and drove home and did some laundry. I tried to find James' headphones for him, but they didn't seem to be in the house at all and I don't know where they could be except maybe in Jenny's room or car.

James came home in the afternoon and we talked and he studied and did some work. Scott showed up to work on Bastion's room and it's getting pretty close to being done. Then I'll be able to have a room of my own instead of keeping all of my stuff in the loft.

James and I had a little more A.F.P. before he had to go into town for some Mason stuff. We were both feeling very frisky today.

I didn't know when James and Jenny would be home so I made a bit to eat and I was just starting to take a bite when Jenny came home. She was going to make dinner and asked if I could still eat something and I said sure since what I'd made was just a little microwave meal.

James came home and we had dinner out on the deck and it was really nice. The sun was setting and it was cooling off and it was really peaceful. Then we all hung out and talked for a while and I did the dishes and they started transplanting some of the herbs that Jenny bought and I went up to write a little bit.

Tags: d & s, james brown, jenny from missoula, masons, remodeling, storage unit, writing 365

10:26 pm: Media Consumption
Sunday 05/21/2017 to Saturday 05/27/2017

Movies: ( {++} = Watched With James)
NONE

TV: ( {++} = Watched With James)
NCIS: Los Angeles: S08 E24 (Unleashed)
NCIS: New Orleans: S03 E24 (Poetic Justice)
The Blacklist: S04 E21 (No. 04: Mr. Kaplan)
The Blacklist: S04 E22 (No. 04: Mr. Kaplan: Conclusion)
Sense8: S01 E01 (Limbic Resonance)
Criminal Minds: Beyond Borders: S02 E13 (The Ripper Of Riga)
Elementary: S05 E24 (Hurt Me, Hurt You)
Madam Secretary: S03 E23 (Article 5)
Last Week Tonight: S04 E13 (No Guest)
Sense8: S01 E02 (I Am Also A We)
Sense8: S01 E03 (Smart Money's On The Skinny Bitch)
Sense8: S01 E04 (What's Going On?)
Sense8: S01 E05 (Art Is Like Religion)
Sense8: S01 E06 (Demons)
Sense8: S01 E07 (W. W. N. Double D)
Sense8: S01 E08 (We Will All Be Judged By The Courage Of Our Hearts)
Sense8: S01 E09 (Death Doesn't Let YOu Say Goodbye)
The West Wing: S05 E20 (No Exit) [NBC] {++}
Sense8: S01 E10 (What Is Human?)
Sense8: S01 E11 (Just Turn The Wheel And The Future Changes)
Sense8: S01 E12 (I Can't Leave Her)
The West Wing: S05 E21 (Gaza) [NBC] {++}
The West Wing: S05 E22 (Memorial Day) [NBC] {++}
The West Wing: S06 E01 (NSF Thurmont) [NBC] {++}
The West Wing: S06 E02 (The Birnam Wood) [NBC] {++}

Web Series:
NONE

Books:
* = Plays / Short Stories / Novelettes / Novellas:
The Wise Man's Fear [ebook] by Patrick Rothfuss - 50% - 64% (of 1,007 pages)

Manga, Graphic Novels & Comics:
NONE

Misc:
NONE

Reference:
LibraryThing
2017 Reading List

Tags: james brown media, media consumption

10:19 pm: A Gathering Up
Today's Writing Effort

I woke up feeling like today would be a good day. Shani came by to talk about what we needed her to do next week. Then maxheadwidth went into the gym in the car and Jenny went to run errands and I went to do the same, though my errands required the truck.

I went to Ace to get a land measuring device and then I went to pick up my reading chair at Pier1. I feel much better about it now that I have taken possession of it.

After my errands, I went out to James' storage unit to get all the non-furniture stuff out of it. He joined me after a bit because he was still feeling kind of flu-ish and didn't think being sick at the gym was a good idea. Moving a few boxes was less strenuous and something he felt better about doing.

After we got everything loaded up into the truck, we went to the Good Food Store to get lunch and then we went home. I unpacked all the boxes of books into the study and then everything else went into the shop to be sorted at a later date.

I thought that I might make another run to my storage unit, but I was a little tired and Jenny was going to have dinner on in an hour, so I just watched a little TV and read for a bit until it was time to eat.

Dinner was nice with just us three adults. It seemed like a little bit of a preview of what things might be like after the boys are all off on their life adventures.

But after dinner, Jenny made muffins and James studied and then ran an errand and studied some more. And I watched a little TV. James and Jenny even put up a hammock outside and had some alone time outside and I cleaned the kitchen. :)

Before bed, James and I watched an episode of TV and snuggled and all was right with our world for a little bit.

Tags: james brown, jenny from missoula, missoula, shani, storage unit, writing 365

01:36 pm: A Sad, Sad Day
Today's Writing Effort

I slept in with maxheadwidth and wanted snuggles so much, but he didn't want to risk me getting sick and while I understood and stayed away, it made me a tiny bit sad.

That seems to be the theme for today.

I got ready for the day and drove James into town because we still don't have the truck back. James needed to go into the gym. I went to Ace to get stuff for the weed eater and started to look over my bank account after I was done. And boy I'm fucking poor. I only need to pay rent for June and then I'm done since I paid first, last, and deposit when I moved out here and the last month is July. But I still need to set some money aside for when I have to start paying my student loans again in August. If I can empty my storage unit this weekend, I might be able to make ends meet. Also providing I still get my SNAP benefits.

I fucking hate being so damned poor all the time. It sucks.

I splurged and got myself a cup of soup and some coffee at Ruby's after I went to Ace and to the pharmacy to pick up James' prescription with his card. I wrote most of a letter to man_of_snows and just need to finish the assignment he gave me at the end before I can send it off.

And since Jenny is picking up James from the gym, I could stop by my dorm room to check the mail and use the internet.

I don't want to go to work. I've discovered that I don't like the job. At all. It's not the house, it's the work. Working with disabled people is somewhat akin to working in childcare, in that they exhibit a lot of the same behaviors and need some of the same sorts of care. But they're physically adults. And having to see a stranger take a shower/bath or help them onto the toilet is something I'm not comfortable with in the least. I certainly don't like wiping someone else's ass or putting adult diapers on someone.

Does this make me a bad person?

I do like the flexibility to be able to choose my shifts (of the ones that are available in any given week), but the work itself makes me desperately unhappy. I just need to hold on for a while longer before I start looking for something else because of my SNAP. And I don't know if changing jobs, or quitting entirely and being unemployed, will affect my Medicaid. It probably will, but I don't want to ask just yet because if I get told that doing so will make me ineligible, then I'll just be too depressed and angry to do much of anything useful.

So now it's off to the job I hate.

EDIT:
After work, I drove home and there was no one there. That is highly unusual for that time of night. Apparently Jenny and James took Bastion out to Kitty & Travis' new place and picked up the truck, but there's no cell service out there I guess. So I cleaned the kitchen and tidied up a little around the house and then, when James got a hold of me I felt much better. When they got home, I got to talk to James a little bit before he went to sleep with Jenny.

Tags: bastion, food stamps, james brown, jenny from missoula, job hunting, jory, kitty, medicaid, money, ori, travis, writing 365

09:34 pm: Peeps Getting Over The Flu And Other Assorted Stories
Today's Writing Effort

I thought I was going to take Bastion to school today, but Jenny volunteered to do it instead, so I went back to bed for a little while. Then Shani called me about an hour and a half later and asked me to do a favor for her since she's got that flu that's been going around. I went to pick up something important that she had accidentally left at a property management office and then I dropped it off at her place. Then I went back to my dorm room to check the mail and use the internet and then I went home for a little while.

Of course it turned out that Bastion didn't go to school after all. He didn't have the flu but just didn't feel well. *Le Sigh*

maxheadwidth felt well enough to go to an appointment in town with a garden/landscaping expert, so I hung out with Bastion at the house. Kitty and Travis still have the truck, so James took the car into town. I thought they were just going to need it for an afternoon, but that seems not to be the case. In any case, I hope they are done with it soon.

When James was done with his appointment, he came out and picked up Bastion and I and we joined Jenny at Kobe for dinner and then back to the house. Dinner was delicious, as it always is there and I even had dessert, which I almost never get when we go out to eat.

When we got home, we checked out the riding lawnmower, because James thought it might be broken, but it just needed some extra coaxing to get it going. That way we don't need to hire someone to come out and mow the lawn. We just get the boys to do it. Heck, I might even do it if I can figure out how to work the dang thing.

James is feeling better, but not well enough to go on his work trip to Bozeman this weekend. Jenny was going to go with him, but they're thinking that next weekend might work since it's not a holiday weekend and they'll both be over the flu bug they caught.

Since Bastion doesn't have school Friday or Monday, it's going to be a looooong weekend.

EDIT:
I ended up playing a round of Kill Doctor Lucky with James and Bastion before bed and that was kind of fun. And since James isn't vomiting anymore, he stayed the night with me. That made me feel better.

Tags: bastion, bozeman, farming, game: kill doctor lucky, james brown, jenny from missoula, kitty, missoula, shani, travis, writing 365